sometimes its better not to know..

so today went by pretty quick.. my 3rd day volunteering at the hospital; i really like it there =), nothing like i expected. i met a new friend, he was my part-time trainer today; that guy was funny and had interesting stuff to say. it wasnt busy at all today, which was unusual for a monday.. anyway, after that i was picked up and dropped by to a store, omg i saw 'them' as they passed by in their car, she waved at me & i waved back, partly smiling; it was unexpected, i didnt know how i was suppose to react.. but anyway it was a sad incident. i wish things were different between us and the family.. its not suppose to be this way, does everything really happen for a reason? well.. things better change soon, cuz i dont intend to live like this all my life.. but how?! *sigh* andd to make matters worse, i heard something happened today at home while i was away, boy was i glad i wasnt here to witness it; just hearing about it gives me a fright. i dont understand why i have all these drama in my life, why cant things just be normal? i know it would be conceited of me to say that 'i have the worse life ever' cuz theres ppl out there whos in a worser situation.. i mean its not this bad all the time, but still god cant blame me for saying "i hate my life" once in a while, right?? =(